1. I am grateful for the good weather. It meant that my flatmates were out for the day and I worked in the kitchen catching up on my writing and working on the new platform.
2. I am grateful for a bit of proofreading from Cyn-. I have to churn out a few articles in a very short time and it is exhausting. I am working in deficit right now and my chest is congested now to add to the lost voice. But, I just have to keep working towards the finish line.
3. I am grateful for pizza. Whilst Lk- has been helping me, we have been eating together and he eats pizza at lunch so never wants it for supper. For me, once in awhile it is a godsend because all it requires is shoving in the oven to heat it. I am depleted and in deficit so not spending energy cooking is necessary. I am also grateful for Onken yogurt which is my other go to fast food, as well as bananas and tomatoes and toast. I need to buy some vegetables now that our fridge has been replaced. Hooray for that!
Joy- it was a joy to spend the whole day without talking. My voice is pretty bad but more to the point, I think we know how much I love quiet and space - especially when I am in a setback, which, I am in. Working and pushing through a setback is not a good idea, but the key is, I am conscious of it and I know what is coming at some point (hopefully after the 16th)
Oneness - I rarely look back at previous posts and rarely edit unless I have just posted it and it doesn't look or read right. Cyn- will often tell me when I mess up my grammar, botch up a sentence or use a word that gives a negative meaning that I didn't intend. Today, as part of the prep for my milestone event, I looked through some old posts. What struck me was how many days (most?) contained reference to being unwell, being exhausted, being in a setback. That made me very sad and I really had a lot of compassion for myself. I understand my frustration with wanting to get on with living a normal life, with getting back to paid employment and with having the energy to write around it. That life might just be over for me. I won't know until I try but I certainly can't go back to work full time. Not at first. When I look back at how unwell I have been and what I have managed to do, I feel really grateful that I found my way into this practice. Without it, I think I would be depressed instead of radiant. I felt oneness with myself in those setbacks and love for myself for never giving up.
Service - working on the new platform with free gratitude resources is my service for today.
I took no photos today but perhaps one from last week will apply to the mood of this post.